Loving Is All, But Can Be So Hard

Have you ever really thought about Love, and what it truly is; what it truly means to love? Yes, it's a heart thing, but I also believe that agape (ah-gop-ay) love is a heart and head thing; at least in the beginning. I believe that because we find some people to be just plain ol' unlovable, no matter how we try to flip it. That's where the head part comes in; because we want to always be loving individuals; nice girls and guys who wouldn't hurt a fly. But. You see the blowhard who you can just picture being stuffed down a toilet (by you), and that love just ain't there in your heart. You wrestle and struggle, saying 'Come on, Heart, don't fail me now.' Heart ain't havin' it. Nope, don't want to attend this party. Engage head...'Okay, I see blowhard and I must work at it, but I can handle it and have love.' It might take more than a minute, but hang on in there for your sake and the sake of humanity. Agape love is a beautiful thing, but it takes practice because it's pure, untainted love. You're wondering right about now if I could have love for someone who committed unspeakable acts against me and mine, aren't you? The answer is that I would have to work like Paul Bunyan and his ox, Blue, and it just might take me years, but I wouldn't give up on myself because I want Peace in my life/soul/spirit. I don't want to drag around chains like Jacob Marley ('A Christmas Carol'). It's easy to love those who are good to you, and that's a wonderful thing. We all need wonderful in our lives; but Life ain't easy, Baby. It's tender, then it can be crushing; joyful, and despairing; uplifting, dragging you down to the pits. In those negative times, love is the last thing on your mind; but you can train yourself to let it be the second or third thing on your mind. This time, the one you are loving is YOURSELF. We sometimes forget about ourselves because we're so focused outward; and truth to tell, we sometimes think that we are undeserving or unworthy of showering ourselves with compassion and love. But. I believe that when you love you, it's so much easier to love others. So as the song says...'Let a little love in your heart.' And I say...remember to also use your head, as needed. Peace, Blessings, and Love